I Haven't Forgotten You

This is a story based poem so normally it's too long. You can also buy the ebook 'I Haven't Forgotten You' directly from web if you want to read these later.

I've used some Bengali words it, such as these-'Didi' means 'Elder sister'.
'Sona' means 'A  Lovely One'

This poem is over how the love started with my special one.
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I just don't know why and when,

I'll come up with all these dreams.

Still it feels like I haven't seen them,

And it has been changing!

Inside of my heart, when I feel them,

See its thrashing and raging.

But I'm cageing'em, so no one can steal them,

Gotta seal them, and gotta trim!

There's a pile of these I've left before,

Some miles of years ago.

But I dare not go to there 'cause,

There grieves are weeping. Though

It was Sun or rain, tornado

Or deadly, heavy snow,

I had sown the seed of glorious love,

On that past's flow.

When it was seed, it had to lead me,

It had to make a bond.

When it got leaves, it had to leave me,

Of others, it was fond!

When it opened itself, just gone cocained,

Said, "Now I've got some more!"

I said, "Please don't grow, don't wanna see you dead!"

But it kicked me to sad door.

But when I realized, who exactly is she,

When I felt her angelic heart,

I got that how wrong I just was,

So was just about to give up!

Like a coconut, she has a soft essence

Covered by the hardest shell,

I was lame that I could not smell that,

And pushed myself towards hell!

There's a girl, I guess the sweetest,

I've ever, ever seen!

To know her, hear her speeches,

I'm very, very keen!

These all started, when I was started,

I was only thirteen!

'I can feel her!' on this still fact,

I was consciously clean.

Our rhythm was separated,

By a little first floor.

I could not live without soil,

And the blue sky was her door!

There was a gaming atmosphere,

At our grass less backyard.

From balcony, she used to look,

To match eyes, I was feared!

This was the weird connection between us,

Only looking without eyes.

She was trying to make some 'talks',

And I was trying to catch her tries!

Though we had just stepped onto teenage,

And we both were freakin' shy,

For me, she was my sweetheart,

For her, I was her guy!

She had her tuition at the morning,

At evening, I got games!

It was when our seeking eyes were making,

My cricket skills to lame!

I could not blame on myself,

It was just, I didn't know!

I guess, same to her was happening,

It was a total confusion show!

But all these changed to a new way,

It was a fine bluish day,

When she finally made it forward,

In happiness, I got gay!

"May we play here if you don't mind…"

It was her first golden ribbon!

Actually, she was with her didi,

They wanted to play some badminton.

I made my outer so calm,

But from inside, I was mazed.

My heart was jumping a lot,

Pumping up to one-fifty m.ls!

"There is no problem at all",

I said with shaking voice,

But the problem was my filled heart,

It was horribly making noise!

She smiled and gone with a skilled way,

And I was healed with joy!

I will never loose this moment,

Will never let it be destroyed!

It's like some Mojes came invisibly,

And made way between,

And disabled all the distances,

Removed the bay of 'Away being'!

Circumstances taught us to match

Our little foot steps with believe.

Our Tulip like relation,

Was transparent, but so deep!

There's only one pray used to born,

In every night of Christmas Eve,

"Please Jesus, let me know her,

Let me give her what I can give!"

Our days were passing on this way,

This may sound like so bore.

But the rest was left to be done,

Did not leave anymore!

I asked one of my dearest friends,

"Do you know who's that sweet one?

Getting mad to know what her name is,

For my soul, she's so charmed!"

First time, he didn't make up.

I didn't emphasized it too,

'Cause somehow if it gets spread up,

I'll just be dead, so didn't try to woo!

But at last, I've won that,

Got her sweet name is Tumpa!

At least, now I can call her,

The sweetest girl, to whom a

Sweet life can be given,

Pure soul can be poured,

Now I can't live without her,

Her life must be adored!

Somehow, I can't remember clearly,

Got that she's in facebook.

How nice that coincidence was,

'cause I also had one to look

Hers! With harsh, went to search bar,

Typed her, to drive my luck forward.

And when I found her, I just can't express

That out bounded feeling in just words!

Begged for friendship and started waiting,

But the time was passing slow…

All dreams of night has gone at once,

Will she add me? I just don't know!

My days were going, and going and going…

And when I got no 'Yes' or 'No',

I fall into the depth of dark.

Now without her, where can I go?

How can I owe my own life and rhythms?

Am I gonna just be dead flow?

All my lines are gonna be 'Nothing' in a moment,

Am I going to loose her heavenly glow?

But no, my fears went out with the tears of happiness,

When she added me to her life!

My nights started to be only heartbeats then,

Now I'm on someone, matching all her strides!

Then we started knowing each others,

Started sharing joys and vain,

Every moment she was showing me whole new ways,

In her unknown and dark lanes!

And she was trying to find me too!

That was how we made the chain,

Of cheerful love harmonies,

The symphony, which never faints!

I used to get up to the roof,

From where she could be seen,

Used to wait there for a long time,

In wish to seeing her fins!

And I could see her walking,

Finding something with her eyes.

I don't know if it was me in'em,

But I was keen to know what she finds!

Her seeking eyes were saying to me,

"Why do you want me, say?

What's so precious and ambitious in me?

Why am I all your way?"

I used to say so silently,

"You don't need to find now,

When I'll bring all the love for you,

Then you will get that how

Bright and important you are for me,

So today I take the vow,

I'll always keep you in open smile,

Will never let you down!"

One day, I asked with open heart,

"Can we meet? It would be fine!

I've always beard the distance,

Now I can't bear the time!"

First time, she just told nothing,

Then said, "Just to be kind,

I won't let you be disappointed…

Tomorrow, at rise 'n shine!"

I made a portrait of her,

Giving the entire course I had,

I framed the sketch with my warmth,

To make her feel so glad!

I could not sleep for fear,

Could hardly pass the night.

What would I act tomorrow?

How’d I handle the site?

I'm not even slight accustomed,

To express or to enlight

The feeling which I feel for her!

Will this all gonna be alright?

I barely made some dialogues,

Tried to keep them in my mind.

Suited myself, combed by hair,

Then stepped into the wind!

I was going to the place of meeting,

Where she told that she'll wait.

Every steps I was making forward,

Was pushing myself towards the fate!

She was standing there with cuteness,

On red, she was just great!

And when I went to her with cold hands,

She said, "Oh, you're late!"

I got addicted with her sweet voice,

And forgot all my lines!

What should I tell to her now?

Fear's now flowing on my spine!

Hardly, I made some statements,

Partly I made it well.

I could see the fragrance of love

Is coming out of its shell!

It was the first segment of our story,

When I was watering the seed.

I thought it would come out with dreams,

So was filling all of her needs,

And I was happy to see her happy,

It was just like anti-decease,

Until her life was summoned by,

All internal complexities!

Day by day, as she was growing,

Was going like blowing snow,

Got she's being covered by whole new guys,

And loosing her glowing flow!

I tried to show her many times,

Why are you loosing your golden blend?

It was just the point we started,

Our rocky second segment…

I used to send her mornings,

All I used to get 'Good Night's.

The rest of time between them,

I was spending seeking for her lights.

She tragically became silent,

I was mad to get her noise!

All were changed when I saw her,

Squabbling on road, with other boys…

I had never said to stop them,

Just requested not to be so wild,

I wanna see your that simplicity,

Which I found when you were a child!

Maybe, she was understanding,

But something she couldn’t tell.

From where, I don't know, she got that,

I and cage are just same!

Everyday, I was seeing her falling,

Every night, I could not sleep,

It was just cannot be beard,

It was just cannot be skipped!

So, I slipped the subject to her,

And she blasted into rage!

I was puzzled to see a whole new face of her,

Mixed with anger and sadness!

"Well in that case…" she asserted on me,

"I would just like to remind,

I've a very rightful life, and I would

Take it where I want to drive!"

And I said, "Yes, I know that,

And no one's blocking your rightful way,

But being a true lover of my Tumpa,

I can't let it be! Yes, I may

Sound so rude, but I can see they're

Not just you hangout mate,

You’re allowing some to get so closer,

To some, you're very addicted!"

She was completely forgot about me,

What we made before, in the past,

The golden bond we made together,

How can she cover that now with dust?

I don't believe that she has forgotten,

But there's something pulling us far…

Between all these up and down mounts,

We passed our third year.

I wished that we'd be able to make

All our deep and thick frost gone.

I was pushing her with all my soul,

But she showed no interest at all.

Maybe something's going so wrong,

And I started finding it…

And I broke down into the bay of tears,

When I looked inside, and candled it.

Found that she's happy with her special guy,

With her life, she was binding it!

I promised myself, I'd never loose her,

And now how can I handle it!

Where are all the colors of her now?

Where are all the flowers of joy?

Had sailed the ships of promises,

And her storm sank the convoy!

I cried, "Sona! Please just look at me!

Please come near, and hold my hand!"

I sold myself for her sweetness,

But she did not understand.

"You have very sharp axe in your hand,

Along with a seed and you've a tree,

It leaves on you that you shall cut the tree down,

Or you shall cut soil to sow the seed!

The difference is, you'll get nothing,

If you cut that down, and let it die.

But if you let the seed be grown with dignity,

It will let you live so high!"

Now you're gone, but still I love you!

Still I find you in the crowd.

Still I look at your balcony,

Believe you'll come, there is no doubt!

Still I worship for you, my sweetheart!

Still I respect all your view.

I don't know where you are, but still expect,

That you know, I haven't forgotten you!

I was leaving my life so barely,

The care which I had got

From my 'Once upon a time' loving girl…

I didn't forget…no, I did not!

So, I started to contact her again and again,

In the hope, the rain will fall.

I knew that she cannot misunderstand me,

So at last, she heard my call!

I could not keep the pain inside,

As it was pressurizing me,

I forgot that I'm a boy,

Leaving the petitions, fall into the weep.

Expressed all my wounds of loving heart,

After listening, she told in the end,

"I've never seen a mad like you,

Those guys are just my friends!

How can you think I've left you behind?

How can you think all about this!

How can you think that I'm a betrayer?

How can you think, that I've missed,

All the past and all its memories,

The balcony, and the yard,

The meetings, and our toning,

All our rhythms, which we had heard?

I thought you were my fighter!

Thought you will win for me!

But how could you leave me alone,

In this gigantic sea!"

I was astonished, moved from inside,

Said, "Oh my dear, Tumpa!

You remember what I told ya?

You're the girl, to whom a

Sweet life can be given,

Pure soul can be poured!

Now I promise you, from this moment,

Your life will be adored!"

City wakes up in the morning,

Like baby, moon sleeps it down.

But we're the naughtiest children of mother,

So we have turned around!

When whole world sleeps in her soft lap,

We wake to find us more!

And nowadays I also can't see,

The little separation of first floor!